Note to self

In his first memoir, A Work in Progress, Connor Franta shared his journey from small-town Midwestern boy to full-fledged Internet sensation. Now, two years later, Connor is ready to bring to light a side of himself he has rarely shown on or off camera. In this diary-like look at his life since A Work in Progress, Connor talks about his battles with clinical depression, social anxiety, self-love, and acceptance; his desire to maintain an authentic self in a world that values shares and likes over true connections; his struggles with love and loss; and his renewed efforts to be in the moment -- with others and himself. Told through short essays, letters to his past and future selves, poetry, and original photography, Note to Self is a raw, in-the-moment look at the interior life of a young creator turning inward in order to move forward.

Welcome to my happy place -- Lemon cakes in a better place -- Unspoken Bonds -- To my dearest past -- Patterns -- The thin line between fearlessness and fear -- A Mindful Mind -- Greed & Desire -- You can't lose what you never had to begin with -- Misplaced Organs -- Lingering shadows -- I was in love -- Broken -- Too hopeful for my own good -- I am a ruin -- Seconds -- It will always be okay -- A mind at its worst -- Her peach sunglasses -- You -- Better days -- Frames -- An unmemorable day made memorable -- Bloodshot -- Arguments in antemeridian -- Morning silence -- Up at 5 a.m. -- I saw a boy in larchmont -- Excuses, excuses -- Runaway -- That one pink door -- London -- Daytime -- About last night -- Still hurts -- All of me -- Hook-ups and come-downs -- The dark spot on the back of my otherwise effervescent mind -- A monster in the closet -- Somebody else -- The pages I hope you never have to read -- A bitter pulp -- Conversations with my therapist -- I don't think people find themselves -- Before it happens -- Full circle -- Colors -- Footprints in the sand -- Us -- Wildfire -- The empty seat beside me -- Valentine's day -- In his arms -- The other side of the closet -- New …